In Memory of Amy YessianA Special Message, Tribute and Request
by Jack Hayford, DurangoSong.com
I met two of my now best friends in the world, Jim Attebery and Jimmy "Muffin" Yessian, ten years ago at the Durango Songwriters Expo. It was the first Expo that Jim produced.
It was a life-changing weekend for me (and many others).
Muff and I met shortly after we both arrived, in the bar of our first Expo home, the Tamarron Resort in Durango—watching baseball before the event got underway.
Muffin is a life-long, die-hard, New York Yankees fan. Ditto for me and the Boston Red Sox. The Yanks were in the playoffs so there we were, each with our own agendas so to speak, watching the game.
"Choke you S.O.B's," is what I was probably saying. "1918" is probably what Muff threw back at me. That started our friendship and musical relationship.
It was an awesome event, as is now the standard for the Expo. There is so much we all remember about that first conference.
It happened that when we left, Muff and I were on the same plane back to L.A. We were at the baggage claim when I first met Amy, Muffin's wife.
They had been together forever and so having become so friendly already with Muff, naturally I fell right in with Amy too.
We did many things, and shared many wonderful moments, the three of us, over the last ten years. And the baseball rivalry grew, although I was out-numbered 2-1. Amy LOVED the Yankees too. That alone kept us always calling and talking shop. We talked music shop too.
Muffin is a really fine and sensitive songwriter. Amy was his biggest champion. We always talked about Jimmy's songs. We had our love of "Muffsongs" in common even more than baseball. That, and I loved her laughter, her great sense of humor.
Amy and I always agreed that "All My Heart" was one of Jimmy's sweetest and best songs. I liked it so much that I took out a piano arrangement of it and started performing it, occasionally singing it with Muff playing guitar, here and there.
About two years later Amy's step-dad who I had also met in Florida, passed away. She took it hard. We talked about it a bunch because I had just lost my Dad too.
At the very next Expo, after the "guitar-pull" on Friday night, I grabbed Amy by the hand and walked her up the winding staircase at the Tamarron to the baby grand piano they had stationed in the lobby. I said, "I have something for you, and your dad." And I played and sang my version of "All My Heart."
She cried. I might have cried too. She gave me a kiss and thanked me.
Here are the words Muff wrote that I sang to Amy:
It's the last stop on the line,
here's where I get off
It's not the end of the world
but where do I go now,
I'm lost
Sometimes love fades and no one cares
That's not the love that we shared
I'll take the blame
Live with the pain
Just tell me you knew right from the start
That I gave you all of my heart
Who dealt me this hand?
Man they stacked the deck
I'd have drawn one more card
if I had known what to expect
Sometimes I break down and cry
I can't believe it's goodbye
One night you're here
the next day you're gone
Excuse me for falling apart
But I gave you all of my heart
I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all of my heart
On November 2 2006 (my mother's birthday), Amy Yessian lost her excruciating battle of 29 months to cancer. We are all still
grieving.
In thinking about writing this little piece, I recalled that I had an old cassette tape of "All My Heart" that Muff recorded years ago for Greg Dorschel when he was working over at Sony/Tree. I made a quick mp3 out of it. It's the medicine I'm taking for the loss of Amy.
Amy gave all her heart to Jimmy. And Jimmy gave all his heart to Amy. Though their life together was cut short by far too many years, it was indeed a special love. Everyone who knows them knows this. Despite their tragic misfortune, they are still the lucky ones, the forever ones.
Probably you've never heard "All My Heart." So I'm playing it for you here as our tribute to my great friend Amy and my great friend Jimmy.
All My Heart — Performed by Muffin
(Words and Music by Jimmy Muffin Yessian)

Here we are at the Key West Songwriters Festival: Amy, me and Muffin. I was singing "All My Heart." I'm still singing it.
The Request: Amy's medical bills were enormous and the family has been devastated financially, as anyone would be. Please send help if you can. As our great friend (and mentor) of the Expo, Michael Laskow, told his TAXI legions, "give a buck, just like you'd throw into the Salvation Army kettle over the holidays...it's the right thing to do."
You can send a buck (or more!) to:
Jimmy Yessian
5719 Beck Avenue
NoHo, CA 91601
or to a PayPal account at: walterlumusic@aol.com.
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